Once upon a time in a land of plenty…

About three years ago, I wrote/ copy & pasted from ff.net… and saved it as a draft. And I thought I published it…and couldn’t find it. Someone asked me for the link to it, as I have it on ff.net, and holy shitballs, it was here all along. Huzzah and better late than never, eh?

I wrote something more akin to a therapeutic-somewhat-spitefic (ok, female lead doesn’t suck as much as the idolized male lead, she gets her happy ending) rather than the fanfic a certain site is known for. At the beginning of this monumental work of playing up troublesome aspects of a popular novel series, I put an author’s note. Rather long-winded, but it laid out what readers could expect, and why. I replaced it with a shorter and less blunt note, and am archiving the oldie but goodie.

This is the author’s note in whole:

There is a reason I have to write this preface, and I’m going to spell it out for all and sundry and hopefully, the PMs will slow down because concerns have already been addressed here. This contains snippets of blog posts I’ve made addressing the issues, as well as choice bits of PMs. Also, there is an FAQ on my profile which covers many of the concerns listed here. This story was originally published here on FF back in 2012. I took it down, altered it a bit, and self-pubbed since out of the many reviews I received, vast majority were positive in nature. The few negative ones did not deter me then, nor will they as I substantially rewrite this story and work in more of the canon, ultimately taking it in another direction altogether. That said, the original incarnation of Chapter One was picked up by a women’s shelter in Cardiff, Wales and is used to help illustrate the power of perception when it comes to abuse. I am proud of that my writing has been used to help educate on the subject of domestic violence. That is my carrot on a string when it comes to getting this story out.


First off, everyone is entitled to their opinion. Your opinion of Grey is as valid as my own even though you and I may not see eye-to-eye. I don’t think I’m going to change the mind of someone looking for their own Grey. I am simply explaining why I chose to address the story in this not-very-pleasant manner. The mark of ignorance is the inability to entertain someone else’s perspective without agreeing- and trust me, I had to entertain a point of view different from my own to get through EL James’ tale. I am sincerely hoping that you, kind reader, are an open minded sort, because that will make this so much more productive. As you can see in the description of my tale, it’s a study in the sub-context I am addressing. That is no secret, and please don’t waste your time telling me I made Grey into an abusive dickhead. I am positive there are other stories you’d find more enjoyable than me busting out a treatise on society-accepted violence. Not every love story has a HEA, and that’s a fact of life I echo in my writing. I’m on the fence about reviews calling out things I’m blatantly pointing out RIGHT HERE.

I mean, if someone feels compelled to tell me I suck because OMG, I just don’t ‘get’ Christian Grey, fine. I’ll probably laugh, enjoy a glass of wine, and ponder a reply I won’t give because someone is unwilling to experience this uber-romantic-got-rape-culture’s-stamp-of-approval from a realistic point of view, as detailed on this page. Far as I’m concerned, I’m laying it all out here for those who aren’t as inclined as others to dissect the society we live. A society that says, ‘Sure, treat me like shit, but at least buy me nice things first” and where women are expected to let a multitude of horrific sins slide because a guy is wealthy and/or attractive. I’m going off the sub-context I picked up as I trudged through that literary quagmire- how often does Ana worry that she upset Grey whenever she opens her mouth? How many times are there tears involved? Bruises she didn’t consent to? Threats to rape her in public (over her biting her lip) and breaking into her apartment without knowledge from her or her roommate? How many times does she basically tell him to back off and yet he ultimately doesn’t? These are not aspects of a healthy relationship.

One cannot heal another with love; that is a fairy tale falsehood of co-dependence. Happiness comes from within and the right partner helps it shine brighter. One can provide a healing environment; considering Grey controls everything, it’s safe to assume he controls the environment, thus it isn’t Ana who is helping him heal. She does learn to manage his moods by walking on eggshells when it comes to certain topics; that is not a marker of a healthy relationship.

Yes, I read FSoG. I did not like it. I found it to be triggering and a glorification of my own experience of domestic abuse at the hands of my boyfriend-turned-husband. I found it disturbing that the protagonist, Ana, lacks so much world experience when compared to Grey who then holds her lack of experience against her, and she has to appeal to an imaginary authority figure, her Inner Goddess – which made me wonder if Ana has some sort of mental illness? Why else would her should-be-invisible Subconscious and Inner Goddess waltz around between Ana’s ears? “Normal” people tend to think in terms of ‘I can do this’ rather than “My Inner Goddess gave me a thumbs up,” if you get my drift. Is this a commentary from James about the maturity level Ana exhibits, where Ana is unable to take responsibility for her own thoughts/actions, pawning decision making to invisible friends?

Having been in an abusive relationship, I’m calling Grey’s actions for what they are. Take away his looks and money and he doesn’t have much to recommend him, in my opinion, for a long-term relationship. Had he not been adopted into a wealthy family and instead bounced around foster homes, odds are that he would have spent time in jail by now. His stalking and manipulation show that he is far from healed, needs a new therapist and to find happiness for himself rather than collecting subs who bear a resemblance to his mother. The psychological aspects of Grey mirrors a Pacific Northwest serial killer, Robert Lee Yates. I find that interesting; give Yates good looks and money and you’d have Christian Grey on your hands. I find that fascinating, really. Could it be a witty social commentary by EL James, of a society’s acceptance of abuse and willingness to look the other way? A slightly different take on Kitty Genovese?

I realize that the tawdry bits in FSoG were definitely eyebrow-raising considering what was the commercial norm before the erotica acceptance. However, I gotta say as someone who dabbled in the lifestyle for a few years, I cringe when I got to the bits where Grey demonstrates his dominate style-especially outside the bedroom. Safe, sane, and consensual, it was not. Got no problem with kinky fun. But the parts that concerned me most were his attitudes outside “playtime” and how he put Ana under surveillance 24/7 and did not adhere to the boundaries she set. Her opinion doesn’t seem to matter much to him. He may acknowledge her concern, but then he blows it off and does what he wants instead (for example, her car. Why did he buy her a new car he won’t let her drive?) I also have a problem with stalking, intimidation, coercion, not taking NO for an answer, victim blaming, and other forms of random douche-baggery.

One can see different things when they read for pleasure versus reading with a critical eye. Those who read for pleasure don’t catch things, they aren’t looking for the sub-context, only what the writer had the narrator (Ana being an unreliable narrator) remark upon, colored with the narrator’s perspective. Ana is sheltered and Ana does not understand what constitutes domestic violence. I know I didn’t, I assumed getting hit was ‘domestic violence,’ not the put-downs or threats. But those too, are abuse.

I can understand if you got swept up in the story, but in a clinical setting, a lot of the behaviors exhibited are considered serious markers for an abuser. Grey is a manipulator. Ana never signed the contract, and Grey still acts as if she did. The man stalked a woman 3000 miles when she stated she needed space and he hadn’t even known her a month. That’s scary, not romantic. He enters her apartment without Ana or Kate’s knowledge or consent, hits and rapes Ana. She wasn’t into it and basically says, “Oh, at least it wasn’t that bad.” Grey should have involved the police when Leila started doing her thing. By keeping it on the down-low, he enabled a mentally ill person and chucked her in an art school rather a psychiatric ward where her needs could be addressed.

You are absolutely entitled to your opinion about Christian Grey- I will not argue that. But to me, he’s the better looking twin to the man I married and who told me he knew where he’d hide my body. I’m not going to be quiet about that. Abusers thrive in silence, and I’ll be making some noise for educational purposes.

Maybe someone will read this story and see them self in AnaMaria, and know they too can escape an abusive/manipulative relationship. That is why I am writing this.

Once upon a time I was Ana. No more.

On the topic of Grey and his mother…

Oedipus by Proxy.

Christian Grey openly admits he prefers subs who resemble his “crack whore mother” i.e. brown hair, blue eyes. He beats them because he cannot beat his mother as punishment for leaving him as a child. Why else would he choose women to beat that bear a physical resemblance to his mother? Since she’s dead, he can’t take his anger out on her. So all those poor women who have the genetic misfortune of brown hair and blue eyes are taking the lumps for her; I’m convinced Grey hasn’t told his therapist about it, or else his “therapist” is a quack who is awesome at writing prescriptions for narcotics.


The following was taken from Jenny Trout’s blog, because she is wondrously eloquent and awesome. jennytrout dot com slash ?p=3007

The following “red flags” are from a hand out entitled “Universal Red Flags” taken from a book called How To Spot A Dangerous Man. The instructions read: “Check all the following that apply even if only remotely”. Let me share the ones I checked on Ana’s behalf:

You feel uncomfortable about something he has said or done, and the feeling remains. I don’t think we need to cite any one particular incident where Ana has been made uncomfortable by Christian Grey. This is prevalent throughout the book.

You wish he would go away, you want to cry, and you want to run away from him. Ana often thinks about how she can “escape” Christian, how she needs to find an exit, how she can’t handle being around him because she can’t trust herself to think clearly. In just the portion of the book we’ve reviewed so far, Ana has ended three of her encounters with Christian as a sobbing mess.

You have the urge to “love him into emotional wellness,” if that were possible. Again, based on the chapters we’ve reviewed here so far, Ana does seem to believe that she can change him, or that he has psychological wounds that need to be healed.

You feel bad about yourself when you are around him. One of the clearest indicators, to me, anyway, that there is a power imbalance in their relationship is the fact that Ana constantly compares herself – how she looks, how she acts, how she’s dressed – to Christian and his very wealthy lifestyle, and she always finds herself lacking. She often wonders why he’s interested in her.

You only feel good about yourself when you are with him. Conversely, Ana doesn’t have a nice word to say about herself unless it is confirmed by Christian. When her roommate tells her that she’s pretty, Ana interprets it as a patronizing compliment Kate can’t possibly mean, but when Christian Grey calls Ana beautiful, she suddenly believes that she is. In fact, the only time she believes anything good about herself is when it’s Christian pointing it out.

You feel that he wants too much from you. I think this one requires very little explanation. Not only does he want more than she wishes to give, he constantly pressures her to give him what he wants.

You are emotionally tired from him; you feel he “sucks the life out of you.Now, Ana never says, “he sucks the life out of me.” But again, even if we just look at the first half of this book, she’s doing a lot of crying herself to sleep, needing to get away from him because he’s too intense, etc.

Your value system and his are very different, and it’s problematic. I have this phrase I trot out from time to time with my friends who are dating: If you have to “work on” the relationship within the first month, it’s not going to work out. Sometimes, people are simply incompatible. Ana and Christian have spent most of their relationship with Ana trying to find ways around giving Christian what he wants, and Christian refusing to bend on his expectations. This is not going to clear up in a few more dates.

Your past and his are very different, and the two of you have conflicts over it. Spoiler alert, Christian is obsessive and controlling about food because he went hungry as a child. I know we haven’t gotten to that part of the book in the review yet, but it fits in here. And that’s just one of the ways their pasts differ in problematic ways. While Ana sees his earlier relationship with a much older woman as statutory rape, Christian believes that it was appropriate and has a continuing friendship with the woman, which makes Ana uncomfortable. Ana doesn’t even want the type of relationship Christian is after, they both are aware of this fact, and he continues to pursue her.

You tell your friends you are “unsure about the relationship” Ana has already had this conversation with Kate in the part we’ve reviewed.

You feel isolated from other relationships with friends and family. Ana doesn’t justfeel isolated, she is isolated, by the nondisclosure agreement Christian asked her to sign. She finds herself living a double life in order to please Christian and still maintain her relationships with her loved ones.

You feel in the wrong because he is always right and goes to great lengths to show you he is right. This was most obviously displayed in chapter fourteen, where Christian responds to all of Ana’s concerns and questions with long explanations that dance around actual answers.

You are uncomfortable because he continually says he knows what is best for you. He isn’t pressuring her into signing a contract that allows him to act out his sexual fantasies on her for him. It’s all about her, and her happiness. He just wants what’s best for her, just like when he showed up at the bar when she asked him not to, and his concerns about her car.

You notice he needs you too frequently, too much, or too intensely. Christian goes so far as to say that he wants her too much, or that he can’t control himself in her presence because of the intensity of his passion for her.

You notice he quickly discloses information about his past or present or his emotional pain. After they go out for coffee, their first encounter that is not tied to the interview, he warns her off from him with cryptic, tortured statements like, “I’m not the man for you.”

You sense he is pushing too quickly for an emotional connection with you. Okay, this one, Ana wouldn’t check off, but I would. From an outside observer standpoint, Christian is running a very good game of “pull her in, push her away,” which is forcing an emotional connection with Ana. After having coffee with the guy once, she’s on the floor of a parking garage sobbing. This isn’t just Ana being emotionally immature, it’s Ana being emotionally manipulated by Christian.

You find yourself accepting him “for now” even though you have plenty of red flags that would help you to terminate the relationship if you paid attention to them. Ana is already aware that what she wants from the relationship and what Christian wants are two vastly different, completely incompatible things, but she commits to the relationship despite knowing it has no hope of a future.

These weren’t all the entries on the list, but some of the questions regarding previous children or substance abuse obviously don’t apply to Mr. Grey. Looking over what we have here, is this a healthy relationship? Can we even consider this to be a romance novel, with all of these elements in place?

However, we’ve seen ample evidence of women saying they would prefer their husbands to behave more like Christian Grey. Others say that obviously, they wouldn’t want Christian Grey in real life, but it’s the fantasy they’re enjoying. What fantasy? I fully support fantasizing about a man who takes control in the bedroom. I cannot, for the life of me, understand how it would be enjoyable to fantasize about a man who takes control in all aspects of your life. And remember, I’m not talking about just a BDSM lifestyle here. I’m talking about the measures Christian takes to control Ana’s life before they even enter into a relationship together.

For an insightful look on the topic, check out Jenny Trout dot com slash question mark p=934

For those open minded readers I haven’t scared off yet, I have some questions I’d love to have your opinion on. Please, if you feel inclined, let me know what you think. I do appreciate the feedback (unless it’s patronizing and disrespectful) and it helps me to understand everybody’s point of view better. [ More questions may be added at a later time ]

a) Would Ana still be into Grey if he was not a billionaire? Let’s say he worked at Best Buy or KMart- same personality, same looks (perhaps not as “polished” because lack of funds and not owning salons) and elitist attitude, but just a bloke who lives in his mom’s basement and Charlie Tango is just an El Dorado. Would he have the same appeal to fresh-out-of-college Ana?

b) If a Dom has demonstrated sub drop more than once, does that qualify him as a knowledgeable and empathetic Dom?

c) How many unhealthy behaviors is it acceptable to deal with when it comes to building a foundation for a new romantic relationship? If your partner makes decisions you have to abide by, would you want your opinion to be considered just as valid as your partners?

d) Do you think Grey adequately described the BDSM lifestyle to Ana so she could make an educated decision on the topic?

e) Is it appropriate for someone who was given permission for a single type of consensual violence (i.e. a spanking) to threaten or intimidate the person on the receiving end when the receiver had a negative reaction to the experience?

I thank you for your time and wish you happy reading.

-M R S



Backyard Homesteading Adventures

Over at Steemit.com, I’ve got a series of (mostly) gardening tidbits, homesteading stuff, and lots of pictures documenting it all.

If you love to garden, here’s a list of my articles you may find interesting, especially if you’re into veggies and organic gardening.

Intro to Hugelkultur and Polyculture

 Soil Building and Health

Seeds, Please

Container Gardening

Pot Buddies and Companion Planting

Duck, Bunny, Pheasant, Chick

Seedlings and Transplants


….. bookmark this page if you’d like to keep up on the gardening tangent, as I will be updating this with more articles as I write them.


Happy Gardening!

Alchemy of Writing:: World Building and sensory seduction

Secondary to characters, setting the scene in one’s story is high on the totem pole of Narration. While characters push the tale along, it’s the setting that helps form the plot. Things don’t happen in a vacuum. They happen within a sphere of influence concerning other people who dwell in this sphere, the political and cultural landscape, and weather. Yes, even weather.

Imagine you are a peasant dwelling in a rural area, and the weather is out of whack. Instead of normal seasonal progression, you’re stuck in a rainy winter that lasts two years. Two whole years of being unable to raise grain to feed you, your family, and your stock. Two years worth of rent, rotted in the field. Two years of watching your family and friends wither away and die of starvation and pestilence. Two years of praying to a God who doesn’t seem to hear the pitiful cries of the hungry and dying. Two years of raiders trying to claim any foodstuffs for themselves, stopping at nothing to feed or profit from the misery of others.

Two years of your life you will never get back. That is, assuming you survive.

So yeah, weather can play a huge part in the plot. This isn’t only for historical or fantasy writing; modern day is under the influence of weather and geology. If a volcano blows, ash is put into the atmosphere and planes won’t fly due to the damage ash can do to the jet engines.  Drought causes water wars.

Landscape plays a part as well. Oil pipelines leak, polluting water and harming every animal that drinks from the tainted well. You aren’t going to find super-lush fields of wheat growing in rocky soil that breaks plows. Mountains mean shorter growing periods, so depending on their location in relation to the equator will determine whether or not tropical fruits will be grown or found. Natural barriers are marvelous for separating cultures– and that in itself will drive a plotline.



Here are some things to keep in mind when wordsmithing to help fill out your world for the reader’s delight:

1- Establish your protagonist’s culture; any quirks or things that other cultures would find odd. For example, in a fantasy novel I am weaving, the first born children are fostered at a young age into a trade, and second born children inherit their parent’s property and holdings. Firstborns are the ambassadors of their people, being sent to other countries to serve nobility. This establishes how such people are treated by their own kind and by those they meet in other lands. Various statuses in life will yield the same result; an abbot vs a friar, for example. Or a wealthy land owner vs the peasant that rents his lands– their culture and how it perceives various members of it’s society will dictate how your characters act and what society will permit them to get away with.

2- Establish the setting using one’s senses; the crunch of dry leaves underfoot, the scent and sight of apples hanging heavy from trees, the brisk wind blowing in one’s face, the taste of the first harvested apple of the year… senses play their part in enriching the scene. Think in terms of texture when it comes to touch.

Whether perfume creating a trail through an empty ballroom, or the gnarly tang of human excrement clinging to the walls of a dungeon, scent should be present. If there nothing to smell, there’s nothing going on. Same for sound– reality doesn’t involve soundless voids (well, except for sensory deprivation chambers)… if nothing else, one will hear their heartbeat thunder in their ears.

3- Landscape is more than trees and hills; it dictates certain inevitabilities. If one lives on the coast, they’d probably eat more aquatic life than terrestrial. If they aren’t feasting on fish every day, then why? If the landscape is mountainous, how do the people survive? Do they import things like grain? Are they an insular people, protective of their meager lands, or are they open to all for trade and knowledge? What does their cities look like? Wood or stone? Mud? What is their preferred building material and why? You aren’t going to find cities of carved stone created by those without the technology to do so, such as smelting metal to create tools.   Questions like these should be at the base of your thought pyramid when it comes to creating various tribes, cultures, clans, civilizations. There is a logical reason behind most things; establish the reason and all other pieces fall into place. For example, coastal-dwelling people would most likely have boats of some kind at their disposal. Those who dwell in verdant lands of tillable soil would most likely count the bounty of their land as being equal or more important than gold– after all, one eats crops not coins. It is the land that is the basis of their wealth.

4- Technology is dependent upon resources; areas of bamboo jungle provide more building material than that of traditional timber. We know this because archeology has shown that in humid areas such as South East Asian rainforest, evidence of stone tools is lacking when compared to other areas at the same time in antiquity. That’s because material like bamboo is very abundant (growing a foot a day in certain conditions) and versatile, but decomposes after a few years. Bone, stone, and when preserved in favorable conditions (airless), wood remains to show those looking, how ancient man got things accomplished. So, if you’re writing about a civilization that lives in bamboo crannogs above the mangrove swamp, and use huge iron-tipped spears to hunt the tigers hunting them, you will need to explain how they acquire said iron. Did they smelt it? They’d need fuel that burns hotter than bamboo, and plenty of it to smelt their own, plus iron-rich sand. Did they trade for it? If so, what did they trade? Iron would be precious to them, so it would demand a high price. Given their resources, what could they trade to equal the price of a life-saving necessity?

5- Inspiration is around; just read a history book. Humanity is prone to patterns. These patters emerge, time and again if given enough time. Humans, no matter where they dwell on the planet or station in life, are opportunistic. Given half a chance, they would do what it takes to better themselves/family/lot in life. Transform the terrain to increase crop production, import plants from across the world, adapt technology and religions from other civilizations to suit their own society’s needs… The greatest inspiration one can take is reading how various civilizations have conquered each other; Romans took over great tracts of land; England married into various European royal houses and colonized the hell out of the globe via their navy; war, disease, “manifest destiny”… all these are tangents that can fill out a story. These are the events in the background of our lives, events that shape the future.

BROKEN TOYS: serialized novel on Steemit.

Chapter links on each image!

Dear you.

People I respect, I’m trying not to chuck your memory into the rototiller’s way. Yet I can’t help but wonder if those I’m talking about/to (but not addressing by name; if they read this, they’ll know if they’re included in my plea) actually care to pay attention to a situation much larger than themselves; something more important than this country. Since the primaries, I’ve been in a soul-searching mood, philosophically analyzing a great many things, trying to find the truth to it all. And I made the grave mistake of sharing those views on social media. I won’t apologize for exercising my first ammendment right and the all-American proclivity of questioning authority.

You didn’t like my opinion or views on certain subjects didn’t match yours. This election was ugly in more than one way. It pulled a mask off America, revealing the cringing truth of what this country has become. This country has become a nest of self-centered, myopic, ill-educated, bigoted Americans, who react emotionally rather than logically when presented with an opportunity to vote in favor of their civilization’s self-interest.

I am not asking you to agree with me. I am asking you to consider with an open mind  and open heart what it is I am trying to explain with as much nuance as I can.

A part of the writing profession is beta reading and editing. To be successful (or at least decent) one must study grammar, vocabulary. Culture. Psychology, or at least get the gist of what drives people. Having a nit-picky eye for detail is important– it’s the difference between mediocre and stellar. I’m referencing this because I feel that dismissing someone with a proven eye for detail is an error.

That said, before the election, my non-political views were shrugged off– unless they were helpful  or amusing to you, personally. My views when beta reading and editing help point out things you may have missed, didn’t consider, or even pedantic nuances that conjure a more rooted sense of reality (for example, it’s hard to rip panties off if they are worn beneath a garter belt– the straps holding the stocking up impede one from removing them in a fluid motion; it’s nit-picky detail that is realistic and logical. If a reader has been in that situation, the author may bump the reader from the reality they are trying to craft) that one needs to keep a reader engrossed. My eye for detail is inconvenient when it goes against wants; however that doesn’t mean it is not factual.

Why is it when I apply this same level of analysis to politics that I’m regarded as a nutjob? Why is it when I point out facts that are relevent to situations and people, they are ignored? Why is it when I provide the tools for research, they get an eye-roll and I get lectured on some manufactured talking point? Are you incapable of reading through the information– even from sources you may not like– and come to a conclusion for yourself? Is your want of critical thinking that lacking? Must you be told what to think by talking heads, that here I am, imploring you to expand your reading repertoire?

You can’t escape facts. You can’t escape the reality of the situation. And the sooner you realize that politics is nothing more than two chess games– one played atop the table for the public eye and one played beneath the table for only those in the know– and start focusing on what’s happening with the game kept from the public eye, the better.

Start reading history; I realize research can suck when its dry reading, but dammit, this shit has already happened, has already been documented, and it’s happening again. And it’ll continue happening until people start waking the fuck up.

I respect you. I respect your opinions. I understand why you have those opinions. But you failed to give any other viewpoint the same kind of consideration.

You’re liberal. You’re open-minded. But you’re short-sighted. Hating Trump voters because they chose a conman who offered the lie of change from a system that’s been breaking the country apart, instead of choosing the candidate which represented the status quo of said system isn’t any better than hating African-Americans or Mexicans. You’re hating a group without understanding their perspectives and backgrounds. You’re projecting your views of them, (such as Trump voters “are racist and misogynistic, violent and stupid”) you’re making them into less than a person because they aren’t like you. That this one defining feature binds them all and it’s a negative connotation in your opinion. You preach the party of line of don’t be a racist douchebag, hating on people you don’t know, yet here you are, hating on people because they wanted to break the system that’s been breaking them. Everytime I see someone on social media spew their hated of their fellow Americans it sickens me because how is that any different than some racist asshole bagging on a person of color? You’re being divisive in a time when this country needs unity to keep it from further fracturing apart. Yet you chose to widen the divide, like a Trump-based Jim Crow– you talk down to them, as though they are inferior to you because you see them as inferior to you. And for that, may this be the only time I say Fuck you for being an asshole, to you. In my eyes, you’re no better than alpha jerkwad in this regard, trying to kowtow people into following your line of thinking or belittling them for not doing so. There is no attempt to reason, only order them to toe the line. There is no outreach, only scorn. And you wonder why the country is the way it is.

No, it’s not the same as racism. People don’t get to pick what ethnicity they are born with, but you may want to consider those who are in dire straights from working a fulltime job (or more) and still can’t pay bills isn’t going to vote for a candidate not fighting for change in their favor.

I’m not saying you need to be pals with every single person, but you do need to acknowledge that:

  • You have not lived their life or have all their experiences that helped form their perspective on the world. 
  • Despite different backgrounds, we all have to deal with the direction our country is going– we are all Americans. 
  • If we want this country to succeed, we must unite for a common goal despite differences in backgrounds, creeds, and perspectives. 

As long as the citizens of America are fighting amongst themselves, we can’t unite to fix what is wrong with this country. Considering Trump got elected, there’s something VERY wrong with this country.

Are you happy with your bread and circuses? Or are you ready for actual change? Remember, an arrow goes forward with tremendous force after it’s been pulled back under tension.

Please, do yourself a favor and start watching some alternative media before it’s made illegal. Youtube has already started banning people who report against the state-approved story… so North Korea, here we come.  If you really give a shit about this country’s future and the voices that are trying to wake people up, I suggest Jimmy Dore, Redacted Tonight, The Humanist Report, H.A. Goodman, The Young Turks, Tim Black. They are progressive voices all offering different perspectives and damn relevant points. You won’t agree 100% with all they say, which is a good thing otherwise they’d be echo chambers. No, they aren’t corporate media, but a few of them have worked for corporate media before they decided to get out and report facts.

You may also want to consider that things released by Wikileaks are fully vetted before going live. In their ten year history, they’ve never redacted a single document. Think about that for a moment. Not every journalistic publication can boast of a flawless reporting history, but Wikileaks can. So when they release documents that verify corruption, you may want to take them seriously, as they do relate to this country’s path. Don’t start giving a shit because Trumplestien got a red carpet entrance into the White House — give a shit because corruption in our politicians and a failure to uphold ethics and integrity is detrimental to our country’s security regardless of who it relates to — because people such as I have been trying to tell you this for months. We tried building bridges of communication, as that is a necessity for success. We tried to tell you and we were told to shut up and toe the line. Do you see where that attitude got us? It got us Trump. I won’t blame you for Trump, unless you’re a part of the Electoral College.

I respect you as a fellow human being, complete with your own set of views and life experiences. I love you as a fellow human being, walking the earth with me. I hope that you will forgive me for speaking harsh truths, but they need to be said. I have hope that we can all work together, otherwise we fall apart. This country needs more common threads of humanity and less hate. We already have enough of it without yours. No, you may not be physically attacking people in the streets, but you are engaging in behavior that doesn’t benefit the country. You’re acting like those very vocal Trump followers you indicate you despise.

Here’s a start: if Trump proposes something dangerous, outrageous, or stupid, we get vocal as hell. And if he proposes something that actually benefits the country, then we support it. If you’re hell-bent on nay-saying everything Trump says just like the Republicans did to Obama, then you know what? You’re a Republican, so own it. Don’t call yourself someone who cares about the country when all you plan to do is make a point at the expense of your fellow Americans. Even a broken clock is correct two times a day– and if Trumplestien offers something that can help America heal, then we should take it. We don’t need to engage in cult of personalities– because that kind of thinking got us Trump. If all you can see is his personality and fail to see the larger picture, then you’re hindering progress. If you refuse to accept fact without thoroughly researching the subject matter and deciding after reviewing evidence, then your critical thinking is damaged. There’s so much more at stake than Trump. Did you know that?

No, you didn’t. You’re too busy focusing on the latest soundbites instead of educating yourself.

A report published in 2015 (that’s pre-Trump, so don’t blame him for this) by Deagel, a military contractor, forecasts that the American population is going to take a huge dive. Well, America in general.

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If I haven’t pissed you off enough, maybe you’ll consider my point of view when I offer insight into something you may have missed or not considered. Maybe trust that I’ve read quite a bit non-fiction and have studied history. I offer this, my little podcast/show, where I provide screenshots and cite sources. Maybe accept that your perspective is valid, but can always be expanded.

America needs as many clear-thinking, logical, ethical citizens ready to hold the establishment responsible for its actions. We need people ready to engage and help, not stand in the way of progress and healing.

With respect and frustration,


Pizzagate isn’t the first time this topic has been blown off and ignored so it could continue…

I think it can go without saying much, that this election was a certifiable clusterfuck. We witnessed the media reporting bias and not fact; spin was their preferred method of relaying what people perceived as ‘facts’… but more than just that was revealed to those paying attention. We saw our country hit bottom of the barrel, skimming dregs off the bottom and offering those as candidates and trying to polish those turds. It didn’t work.

Now, through the Podesta email wikileaks, we stumble across evidence of something that has been lurking in our country for decades… child trafficking.

“Wait,” you’re thinking. “No way, that’s bullshit, stop lying you hateful person.”

Um, no. There’s been precedents set time and again by the government, through the military and military contractors, the CIA, and help in hiding it from the FBI, at least in the 80’s. Seems now they want to break this shit open and shine some sterilizing sunlight into the darkness. In fact, there’s documentation to back up my claims. All links have been achieved; the cover up concerning the Podesta brothers and their sex ring has begun and Wikipedia has already scrubbed and/or deleted their pages concerning aspects of this case.

I am hoping that you’re anti-sexual abuse. I’m hoping you don’t want your tax dollars going toward helping and hiding this shit. And even if there are no kids harmed by Comet Ping Pong, wouldn’t it be best if we had an unbiased, third party conduct an investigation, thus ruling out the possibility of children being exploited? I’d rather my taxes go toward protecting kids than hiding and assisting pedophiles getting their rocks off. Your milage may vary.

P I Z Z A G A T E .

Yeah. Let’s address “propaganda,” “fake news,” and shit that happened and you probably don’t recall much, if at all. But it happened (and it was documented and now archived). And how our government, as a whole, handled each instance is less than acceptable. Shutting down discussion of sexual abuse is what abusers do.

Don’t be a gaslighting douchebag when there are well-documented facts backing up what I’m laying down.
*Franklin Cover-Up/White House Call Boy Scandal, 1970’s-1980s Nebraska. Credit Union in NE used by the CIA to launder money from cocaine sales to fund the Iran Contras. The guy running the credit union groomed kids from Boys Town to serve as sex toys in DC. Tom Brokaw touched on it in a news report, calling the boys, “prostitutes” instead of trafficked children.  The spin is evident; Attorney general didn’t want to touch the fact those kids were 13-15 and flown in from the Midwest to serve the sexual desires of politicians, and instead focused on the fraud of politicians using credit cards to purchase child rape “services.” John DeCamp was the lawyer representing three of the victims and wrote a book about the case. It’s a hard, horrific read which names several prominent politicians and acts of ritualized abuse/Satanism/Black Mass. If what he described was false, his book would be slander/libel and those named would go after him to redact it; they haven’t. Because in order to do so, they would have to face evidence… and their secrets would be out in the public eye and on TV instead of in an obscure book. So they let it slide with the occasional threat to his life.
“What you have to understand, John, is that sometimes there are forces and events too big, too powerful, with so much at stake for other people or institutions, that you cannot do anything about them, no matter how evil or wrong they are and no matter how dedicated or sincere you are or how much evidence you have. This is simply one of the hard facts of life you have to face.”

~Former CIA director William Colby giving advice to his friend Senator John DeCamp, urging him to cease his investigation into the Franklin child abuse affair and to write a book about his experiences (‘The Franklin Coverup’, 2nd edition, foreword).

If you recall Oliver North getting crapped upon for the Iran Contra thing, that’s on purpose. Deflect from the pedophile ring and onto something less risque, like selling coke to fund CIA shenanigans.
*The Presidio Day Care scandal (1987) involved “satanism” (One guy was Church of Set) and sexual abuse; those sickos preyed on young ones who would be unable to testify in court. Children ended up with STDs. This was hushed up by the government. Wikipedia already removed the page due to the exposure from Podesta’s emails/Pizzagate. But, luckily the NYT has an archive.   West Point and Fort Dix both have similar cases of abuse, sexual and physical, in a day care and in which the Army brushes away concerns lest it rock the boat.
*DEA has underage sex parties, no consequences. They literally solicited underage ‘prostitutes’ while in Colombia investigating a cartel. Oh, by the way, those sex workers worked for that very cartel.
*The US Ambassador to Belgium (assigned by HRC) solicited children. Her state department covered it up.  Funny enough in a not funny way, is that Belgium also dealt with Marc Dutroux; arrested for running a child porn ring, kidnapping, murder… things that echo the Pizzagate issue, including ties to that country’s elite and catering to their depraved tastes.
DynCorp and Halliburton trafficked women through the Eastern bloc.  Children were abused. American citizens don’t recall it much if at all because the modern media works for the CIA. They don’t want their secret out, but with how technology has changed, they can’t keep up with the information released (since they aren’t the ones controlling it), and the resources available online to verify these facts. So, they throw out spin-doctored tales, some misinformation so the populace stays calm, docile, easily manageable. We’re already pissed with the election clusterfuck, like hell do the American people need a stick in the eye to rile them up even more.
Norway had a huge pedo sex ring busted last month. The mainstream media that covered it Nov 20th removed their articles. Why is that, I wonder? Why remove such articles en mass, when European media is still talking about it? Oh wait, cover up. And they only cover up stuff when it’s really baaad.
Makes me also wonder why Reddit is banning any discussion about pgate; why is YouTube pulling vids and comments about it; why Twitter banned a user for outing a pedophile ring operating on their servers; why there’s so much energy being put into spinning it as a hoax and false narrative. I’d think any decent person would want an investigation if children are at risk.
Are you aware Marc Rubio had brought attention to diplomats trafficking people into the USA, to have it brushed off by the State Department? 
Or that in 2000, a council HRC lead tried “bringing legitimacy to prostitution and hard-core pornography” to the UN? 
Want to know what happens in DC when a girl reports she was raped twice?  Oh hai, the owner of that pizza place has the utter support of the DC police?  … nice. But hey, the city planner said in 2008 C P P was a haven of rape and murder, so it’s not like he’s in the kickback chain. Oops, too soon?
There has been a precedent set, time and again, that our government turns a blind eye to the trafficking of children.  They don’t give a crap about the plebes; we’re cattle and oxen to them. The UN doesn’t care. They simply have no fucks to give, unless it involves opportunities to rape kids.
This crap is EVERYWHERE. When do we, as a people, start taking the topic seriously instead of dismissing it because it sounds outlandish that wealthy people do horrible things because they can get away with it and our government is complicit?
If you want the truth, to be “red pilled,” as they say, then do some research beyond the scope of what the media feeds you. Study the CIA’s history. The pre-CIA during WWII was the OSS; they brought Nazi scientists over to the US and instilled them in various labs, universities, and hospitals. (Search for Project Paperclip.) They used Nazi torture techniques on American citizens — Manchurian Candidate was based off that work… guess it’s easier to believe fiction than the truth? (search for Project MK Ultra; it was an umbrella for a shitload of projects relating to mind control via drugs and torture [movie The Men Who Stare At Goats makes mention of it] In 1977, the vast majority of files relating to those projects were destroyed; the “spirit cooking” can relate to that, as it was documented that the CIA used religion and satanism as a means to control people via fear) They got people addicted to morphine (Project Artichoke) They forced people to be sex slaves. (Project Monarch)… in 1995, Bill Clinton issued an apology to the victims of human experimentation by the government.
CIA founded The Finders, a group that kidnapped and trafficked children. Retired FBI Special Agent Ted Gunderson wrote a report about them.
If you read the Carl Bernstein link, you’ll see how the CIA uses media personalities for gathering intelligence and issuing propaganda. That’s all mainstream media is now. And those speaking out are being silenced. Since when did we live in North Fucking Korea?
Pizzagate isn’t about a little pizza joint, as James Alefantis is low on the totem pole of rot. The actuality is the trafficking of people, across the world. CIA is trying to cover it up like they did the Franklin/Boys Town/White House Call Boy Scandal; the change in technology since the 80’s is making it hard. The best they can do is spin this crap like it’s a vinyl record and have their mouthpieces push the narrative they want you to hear.

However, we have screenshots of social media accounts belonging to people associated with the Podesta brothers (including the owner and employees of the pizza place) making sexual references about said pizza place;

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use known pedophile logos in their business signs,
 We have an email from Tony Podesta, where he states he’s still in a torture chamber; should be noted he has a preference for gory art, as well as artists with a preference of painting children being abused. 

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Tony Podesta is a listed foreign agent for Saudi Arabia. His brother John, was the campaign chair for Hillary Clinton, counsel to Obama, and Chief of Staff to Bill Clinton, and it was his emails which were leaked.  He has many fingers in many pies; many connections. Just like convicted child sex trafficker, Jeffery Epstein. Here’s Epstein’s “Black Book,” heavily redacted. Interesting though, who is in it. Such as Cheryl Mills, HRC’s Chief of Staff and family lawyer and Doug Band, Bill Clinton’s henchman who threw a fit when Chelsea wanted to audit the doings of the Clinton Foundation. Oh, and the White House is in the black book, too.

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Do the actual research and know what you’re dealing with. Don’t be intellectually lazy, depending on regurgitated crap coughed up by a corrupt arm of the government which has no problem “silencing” people who rock the boat. In this matter, go by actions, not by words, especially when those words are desperately trying to quell the rising tide of citizen investigation when the spotlight is right on them and their words don’t match the info that’s already out there.

Those pushing the false narrative that dissenting voices are “fake news,” despite facts saying other wise are trying to hide something. The whole scope of it hasn’t been uncovered. Tip of the iceberg. People will not let this die, and for good reason.

Fun fact. Just today, the San Francisco office of the FBI hashtagged HUMAN TRAFFICKING.

So, uh… maybe we’re on to something.


I started a spitefic of Fifty Shades of Grey a few years back. It sat untouched for almost a year. And then, inspiration came. This whole election provided creative fodder. Little did I realize the plot I laid forth in 2014 could support the reality of our human trafficking world. Fucking Bizarro World, man.

Congrats for making it this far.

Red pill delivered.



The long and short of this clusterfuck.

Just warning you, I’m going to be a ranty asshole. Can’t promise to be mindful of everyone’s feels because I’m fucking frustrated as all hell. I’m frustrated that other people’s frustrations means they lash out at me. I’m frustrated that I’ve been saying all along that shit wasn’t going to fly and now everybody is freaking the fuck out because egad, they weren’t paying attention to all the shitty undercurrents at work. I’m frustrated that our society sucks so hard to the point that some dude who has run business after business into the ground, one that’s cheated on all his wives, one that is all things skeezy about the USA… is now our principle representative of our country.

Yes. Trump is president-elect. This is fucked up– that our system of “democracy” has deteriorated at such a rate, a smug xenophobic misogynist won the election. The fucker was on WWE for crying-out-loud.

Donald Trump, Vince McMahon, Bobby Lashley, Stone Cold Steve Austin

How the fuck does one lose to Donald Trump? He’s his own worst disqualification. Yet… only someone shittier than Trump would lose to Trump. Take as much time as you need to process that. But afterward, we got our work cut out for us.

Almost half of eligible Americans did not vote. Ask yourself why they didn’t. Was it because there was no one worth voting for? That they were told their votes wouldn’t count if they voted third-party? That they were ‘deplorable’ for not being “With Her” and that the world would end and it’d be ALL THEIR FAULT?

Let’s assign clear-cut responsibilities:

Voter: responsible for voting.
Nominee: responsible for earning votes.

If the nominees offered by the Republicans and Democrats both fail to collect votes, that’s on the nominees and the parties offering them. Hillary didn’t win because she never created a movement with the same popular appeal and inertia like Bernie Sanders did. She lost because she was forced upon voters by the Democrats– she was chosen to be the nominee in 2014, long before the 2016 Democratic primaries. When one forces a deeply flawed candidate upon the electorate, they better be prepared for the worst. Gauging by the reactions from those who voted Democrat, they obviously never prepared a contingency plan. Instead, they got butthurt and lashed out. Like this, from my facebook feed:


Hey asshole: I didn’t vote Trump. I chose not to vote for ANY evil, thank you very much.

It doesn’t matter who wins the popular vote (something something Al Gore) since the electoral college which is the only vote that really counts in this system we all agreed to participate with on November 8. The very system that the Democrats had no problem engaging in when it was in their favor. That very same system that permitted Clinton to get the vast majority of superdelegates before the primaries even began (and deprived Sanders of kicking Trump’s ass at the polls) because the establishment-backed candidate didn’t have the populist appeal required and they counted on those superdelegates tipping the scales in Clinton’s favor during the primaries. Now they are bitching and whining about that same system they favored, telling Sander’s supporters to get with the program and “vote blue, no matter who.” Because by forcing people to vote against their own interests (war, fracking, cheap labor for corporations via prison system) is a surefire winner. Just ask Hillary Clinton. Oops, too soon?

Note to DNC: Don’t arrogantly order people to vote for the candidate you hand picked before the primaries began. Next time, offer a candidate that inspires people to come out an vote and doesn’t shame them when they vote for someone else.

A candidate picked by the people. Otherwise you get a fucking Trump presidency. Hope you’re happy with yourselves.

Sorry darling, it doesn’t work that way. Just like extremely disappointed Sanders supporters, you get to make due with the shitty hand you were dealt and live with the choices others made because ultimately your opinion doesn’t matter. You’re given a vote to make you feel good, make you feel that you have a say at least on a state and local level, but when it comes to the presidential election, it is nothing more than a placebo as our society’s elite choose for us.

I understand people’s anger. I understand their worry about the future. I felt the same when it came down to Ms. I Can Do As I Please With State Secrets On The Same Server As My Family’s Foundation and Mr. PT Barnum’s Reincarnated Cheeto-Colored Rectal Wart.  But after reading a bunch of opinion pieces regarding Trump’s election, I come away feeling that this had to happen. Yeah. I said that.

Trump’s election tells us that we’ve become a society of people who feel they have nothing left to lose. Disenfranchised by job loss, the rising cost of living, racial tension and police brutality, they’ve hit their rock bottom. We can pretend we’re a society of open-minded liberals, feminists, racially egalitarian. But we’re not. That’s a pie-slice, and small one at that when compared to those who aren’t as enlightened. The USA has large cities and even larger tracts of rural land, fueled by farming, fundamental Christianity, and football. Education, especially higher education is merely a vehicle for an athletic career. Or, they join the military to get out of their home towns. These little nooks honor tradition above most things… even if that tradition includes bias against those not like them and ruling over every aspect of a woman’s life as if she were property because the Bible tells ’em to do so, praise Jesus.
Fuck, look at the stats representing Trump voters:insight1insight2insight3
So, suffice it to say, those representing the bulk of modern America voted for Trump. Hillary Clinton also pushed people to vote Trump when the DNC railroaded Bernie Sanders, and by having an unauthorized server housing government information. By advocating for war, and representing corporate interests (because while her website said she supports tribal sovereignty, she was way okay with corporate oil tearing through treaty lands and ancestral burial grounds) over the people she wants to represent and lead.


Gee, it almost makes a sane person ask, “gee, what does the electoral college know that we don’t, where Trump has a 60+ edge over a consummate politician who is all but Republican in name?”

Don’t blame the people for Trump: blame the system that prides football over education, especially secular education. Blame willful ignorance of those who preferred catering to the system, rather than fixing it, or standing in echo chambers feeding them lies. Blame the media for lying to us all, blame the DNC for forcing Clinton over the popular support of Sanders, blame those in power for not listening to the people. Blame Clinton for failing to appeal to more of the electorate, especially those disenfranchised by the system which has utterly failed them, a system she represents.

Put the blame where it belongs: upon those who keep the populace ignorant. 

One can blame Comey for following through on his promise to report any future findings, or one can blame the fact Clinton was shady enough to get investigated by the FBI. Twice.

One can blame third-party nominees, or one can point out third-party nominees got no  electoral college votes.

One can blame the media for giving Trump enough attention until be became relevant, or one can blame the DNC for asking the media to prop up Trump so he could be relevant.

Assigning blame doesn’t change the facts that the Democrats would be just fine with the electoral college had it worked in their favor, and that the electoral college votes were overwhelmingly in favor of Trump. Is Preet Bharara’s investigation of the Clinton Foundation a factor that a larger fraction of the 538 elites were in favor of the loud mouthed hothead with a penchant for assaulting women? There’s more at play than we know.

Trump has come forth, asking his asshole followers to stop being terrorists to the ethic members of our society. Clinton has not come forth and asked the protesters to chillax. Why would she stop asking them to nix the temper tantrums thrown in her honor because  she didn’t win (those throwing molotov cocktails weren’t protesting– they were rioting. Protest peacefully [like those at Standing Rock, and just think you haven’t dodged dog bites or rubber bullets as those protesters have done) and make your point. But then come back to reality and help forge a better country since now we have no choice. As long as the populace is fractured, those with the real power will control this country. Those protesting that Clinton didn’t get elected are wasting our time, just like the Sanders protesters did when the DNC told us to shut up and toe the line.  So, I guess it’s time to shut up about how unfair it is that Clinton lost the electoral college (when they knew going in that they needed to win said electoral college and were okay with the electoral college until polls closed, Nov 8) and that we should go with the popular vote. If you genuinely felt that way, you would have organized WAY BEFORE ELECTION to have it changed. You failed. You get to deal with your failure. Just like all of America now has to deal with Trump.

Trump has given racists a means to act out, showing not just all of the world, but privileged America that we aren’t on the same page– not when we have enclaves that permit hate groups and domestic terrorists to congregate. Our school systems don’t teach that our ancestors came from the Great Rift Valley in Africa because evolution is too scary for those who rely on the Bible to make decisions for them. Is it any surprise that any populace that views the Bible literally would be down for subjugating those of different ethnic backgrounds and/or genocide, and shitty treatment of women? Is it any surprise that when you keep people ignorant, they do ignorant things?

America, we’re better than this. We’re better than Trump, and now it is time for us to organize and demonstrate it. We can’t fake progress. We have to lead it. And if you chose to waste precious time by being all butthurt you didn’t think America was so broken Trump could get elected, then don’t bitch when things get worse.

You were told, America. You were told.

Next time, please listen to us. Even if you don’t agree. Just listen and try to understand a point of view you don’t agree with. We listened to you telling us we had to vote the way you wanted. That we’re automatically racist and deplorable for not backing your candidate. That even if we view it as a moral stance, we should sacrifice our morals, ethics, and integrity to vote for someone who doesn’t represent us. We listened. You didn’t listen to us in return. I suggest we fix this, as it’s how we build bridges. America needs bridges between demographics more now, than ever. Either you want to stop America from fracturing apart, or you want a happy little echo chamber. We can’t give you both.

Trump is our president, like it or lump it. If we’re lucky, it’ll only be four years and then we can get some major progress going in relation to education. Until his term is up, we have to keep educating people in critical thinking. We can’t rely on soundbites, we can’t rely on mainstream, corporate sponsored news. If we want to come out of this with minimal scars, we have to find common ground and build up from there. We will not give up rights. We will not assist a xenophobic or racist agenda. We will help build a better future for our children’s children. And if we can’t achieve that, then at least we fucking tried.

Election Night, 2016 (not a told-you-so)

I find it (not really, but still I have to see the funny side lest I go mad) amusing that Trump was a democrat longer than he was a republican. People will ignore that, favoring to fixate on his recent leanings. Same people fixate on shitty things he said ten years ago into a hot mic, while ignoring rape allegations made against HRC in 1995 (the video exists on youtube) by a young woman. So much for a woman’s right to being believed. Guess it’s a good thing HRC took that blurb off her website.
I find it amusing that people wanted progress, true progress and for Sanders to head that movement. That the DNC was informed we wanted progress, not “republican lite” or lip service.  Instead, we were “given” a candidate who sits on the fence faking progress in lieu of supporting clean water for all. That her favored locale is among donors, not The People whose votes she needs. Had HRC shown solidarity with the tribes and Standing Rock, things would probably look a bit different for her at the polls– although there are sticklers such as myself that count the NDA violation in and of itself as a disqualifying factor– but many with less black and white views would have looked favorably upon her if she had shown she was on the people’s side, not Wall Street. But she chose oil money over water and life. This choice of hers is hers alone. Not those who told her that they wanted progress in not just social areas, but environmental as well. She was warned. She ignored the warning.
I find it amusing that people are blaming a third party movement that’s been growing due to disenfranchisement of being ignored and subjugated, rather than blaming the candidate that cost the party those badly needed votes. HRC supporters flat out told progressives that their votes weren’t wanted or needed.
Note: Politicians are not entitled to votes, they earn them. If they are unwilling to extend themselves to willingly represent a greater group of people instead of an elite few, then they should expect those people to not vote for them. Why should people vote for someone who feels Wall Street matters more than the majority of constituents? 

I find it amusing that people are hasty to go the intellectually lazy route and bemoan racism and misogyny (which yes, are prevalent in our society, but are not the foundation stones of HRC’s failures) for the fact that a lot of people would have voted for anyone other than Trump or HRC, if we had a viable third party option. As it is, if we want another party, then at least 5% of voters would have to be behind them in order for that party to be on future ballots. So, some of us tried forging a path for the future, one devoid of coercion and detriment.

Rather than validating the facts supporting other people’s views that Trump has poor judgement and HRC will do what she wants, those people instead relied on name calling (if you don’t vote HRC, you are misogynist), fear (if you don’t vote HRC, Trump will get elected and the world will end) and other shady methods of coercing people to vote in a way that makes then comfortable, nevermind that it smacks of totalitarianism . They overlook the fact that people are turned off that she claims to represent LBGT folks and feminism, yet takes MILLIONS from countries that will execute homosexuals and have laws against women driving or being in public with a man she isn’t related to; countries that are vastly not LBGT-friendly nor feminist in the least. But whatevs, the foundation she directed isn’t a reflection of her as a person. Just like her politics aren’t representative of her as a person. It’s just coincidence that she likes large sums of money and the power to do what she damn well wants. Her time as Secretary of State, foregoing established protocol in favor of convenience isn’t representative of her as a person. Yeah, I get it.

Just like how I get that the media has a clear preference for Trump from the beginning, playing into that pied piper role the DNC angled for. How many cameras were trained on Trump’s empty podium rather than give Bernie Sanders any attention? The bias was clear, even back then. The DNC is to thank for this whole clusterfuck. Not only did they help push Trump as a foil for HRC, in hopes of making her look like less of a trash fire, that her scandals were less than his, that they are easier to overlook. Never mind the candidate that didn’t have shit for scandals, the one what had been proven to have won the Democratic nomination but was forced to hand it over to HR… who had been chosen in 2014 to be the nominee, someone chosen by the elite long before America ever cast a ballot.
Maybe, just maybe we as a society have gotten too complacent. Maybe we’re due for rock bottom before we get our shit together. Maybe in the future, the Dems won’t use underhanded, shady tactics and instead stick with ethics and integrity, and maybe, just maybe, will win the  next election because America didn’t get pissed off at the blatant manipulation which ignored or reported and pegged as a partisan attack without any thought.

I know it’s easier to believe a lie than face the truth. But believing a lie cost HRC the election. She told you everything was a-okay, when in fact it was so very not. Next time, please give some thought to viewpoints you don’t agree with; after all, didn’t Aristotle say the mark of an educated mind is the ability to think about something without agreeing with it? Echo chambers lie, and mainstream media and various aspects of social media became just that; removing dissenting posts, inflating stats in favor of their golden child. But they were lies, paid for by the DNC and Clinton machine.

We survived Bush. We can make it through Trump. We’ll have come out with bumps and bruises, but we’ll come out fighting for real change. And maybe, we’ll win. Not because of lip service, but because of grassroots effort put in by a frustrated populace, unwilling to be silenced with lies and platitudes. We will triumph because we believed in something greater than a mere person: an idea worth fighting for.

HRC has no one to blame for her second presidential failure but herself. People matter more than money. Had she listened early on regarding that, and stood with Standing Rock…  If her unauthorized server hadn’t contained State secrets and hadn’t been hacked because she favored convenience over protocol, which got her not just 2 FBI investigations, but another one focused on her foundation by Preet Bharara, making people question her trustworthiness and judgement… Or that her husband consorted with the same sick fuck that offered Trump that 13 y/o to rape… how different would the polls be? ALL these things are valid concerns. There once was a time where having an FBI investigation on one would be a career ender. How far that bar has sunk. How low we set that bar, that someone like Trump has no problem winning the election the way he has. The Democrats had the opportunity to put up a much better candidate. They chose to go with the establishment and run with someone deeply flawed and utterly incapable of being self-aware. Hillary Clinton brought this defeat upon herself and to blame the voters who wanted something to recommend her more than fear, is to blame the victims of this election. They wanted someone worth fighting for, and they were denied that by the DNC.

During the Wikileaks revelations, HRC could have stepped down and put Bernie forth; that would have done much for the party because he’d bring progressives and third party voters. Not all, because many saw him as a sell-out, shilling for the very thing he fought against, but enough that it could have made a real difference. Many voters abandoned the DNC in favor of Trump because they wanted nothing to do with the brand of corruption espoused by the DNC (if they aren’t corrupt, why did Debbie Wasserman Schultz step down?) and rewarded by HRC. Had Sanders been a contender, the race would have been much closer. Progressives would have had one hell of a shot– one much better than HRC, as evidenced by the election. HRC chose not to step down, and now we have Trump.


I know you’re bummed. I am too. So here’s something so awesomely upbeat and quirky because it’s Japanese.

If they can rebound after WWII, there’s still hope for America.


Let’s Piss People Off Some More: The Tale of Orange Pennywise and Chuckles, the Sloppy Secretary of State.

In one corner, we have the Orange Pennywise: scary clown with scary ideology, and since the DNC marked him as a ‘pied piper candidate,’ he was given extra attention by the media/propaganda outlets to make him more relevant…until he was relevant. Every thing out his mouth is to appeal to fringe right and the bitter disenfranchised, making the vast majority of voters contemplate voting Blue because Trump is foremost an entertainer. Not an astute businessman, not an accomplished diplomat, not a seasoned politician. People will vote for him because he’s not HRC, and the revealed corruption she is associated with. They will vote for him because they feel they have no choice due to the fact HRC violated federal laws, like FOIA. That they won’t elect someone who has public and private stances on issues: with Trump, what you see is what you get, creepy/scary as it is.

In the other corner, we have Chuckles, who is documented treating national security as a joke; someone who destroyed government property after a subpoena was issued for the preservation of that property; someone, while in office, is documented having met with donors to her family foundation (after it was agreed upon to keep her office and the foundation separate– yet both were housed on her unauthorized server) and given donors cushy positions– one was given a spot on a nuclear advisory board (this guy was a commodities trader) and others were given ambassadorships. And all this is ignored because egad, Orange Pennywise. Corruption? Doesn’t matter because Trump. Flagrant disrespect of established protocols regarding classified info? Doesn’t matter because Trump. DNC caught doing unethical things to prop up a candidate? Doesn’t matter because Trump. And if that doesn’t cause you to wonder why Trump is so important this election, then I worry about you, and not in a condescending way. America is a social experiment, and we’ve been trained to have short attention spans. Education has been supplanted with entertainment, and no one seems to care. Not when there’s Walking Dead and the World Series, Super Bowl and Game of Thrones to distract us from what’s going on the wider world. Our country helping to kill children and other innocents? Hey, Big Bang Theory! Actual proof of rigging the Democratic primary? OMG Cubs won the World Series!!! Pivot from the matter of substance to something less meaningful. This election season has been full of that.

Now, heavy critical thinking can get one in trouble with those who prefer to entertain circus and bread politics. Don’t rock the boat, don’t ask questions, don’t look behind the curtain. Work hard for little pay, live paycheck to paycheck. Be happy you have the job you’ve got because there are people who’d be happy to work for less just to have a job.  These are the chains that bind us in involuntary slavery. It’s harder to rise up against a tyranny when one wonders if they can pay rent, buy food and still have gas money for the month. It’s harder to rise up when people have been trained to meekly accept their place. “Land of opportunity,” is the carrot on a stick to keep us moving. Maybe one day we’ll win the lottery. Maybe one day we’ll get that awesome promotion. Maybe one day we’ll be happy with our subjugation, nation-wide Stockholm syndrome.

Chuckle’s whole campaign is built around the fact that she’s not Orange Pennywise. She’s got the media on her side, as a propaganda tool to reinforce the fear of how Trump will destroy America, and glossing over the damage she has already done.

You can ignore that if you like, but it doesn’t change the fact that it happened. And is still happening. And will continue.

America doesn’t win this election. America just does another death spiral around the drain this election season.

But facts remain facts, despite how one feels about the subject matter at hand. You might  claim those are false statements I made because I listen to propaganda. Allow me to furnish evidence to support my views.

Should be noted that I have a background in research (ie parsing through a bunch of crap to find common threads) and have worked in a federal personnel office many moons ago, processing paperwork for new hires so the NDA issue is a biggie to me.

First, let’s acknowledge media outlets are documented colluding with Chuckles’s campaign, going as far as sending them a first draft and then letting them edit the article for them. Yeah. No bias there, right? Let’s not forget that while all these liberal media outlets assisted  Chuckles, it’s the conservative ones that actually reported fact, which then got spun into a partisan attack, thus to be discredited even though they provided factual information for the populace. Point is, get your information from a bunch of sources and parse through it— much better than standing in an echo chamber where one surrounds themselves with biased news. Like the Forward Progressives. I stopped reading after the health care entry. Yes, when her hubby was president she tried to do a single payer system. That changed when health insurance companies began donating to her (to the tune millions)…  Follow the money— it’ll lead you to the truth.

Using the “misogyny” argument is intellectually lazy. A goodly number of the people who do not want Chuckles and her faulty memory anywhere near the Oval Office are the sorts who considered Elizabeth Warren or Jill Stein for president. Just because Chuckles is female and people don’t like her doesn’t make those people misogynists.  When there is evidence supporting that she violated her NDA signed Jan 22,2009 after a couple hours training with the FBI concerning the handling of sensitive and classified information is more than enough to consider her run for presidency dubious. Here’s the NDA; read the terms of it, because they are relevant, especially numbers 4-10. Notice her signature, indicating she understands and agrees to abide by the terms. Now, let’s apply what we learned from the Benghazi incident: she tried getting security clearances for Clinton Foundation employee, Sid Blumenthal. Obama himself denied the request and considered Blumenthal a person non-grata, who was to never be given sensitive information EVER. So Chuckles shared information to him, violating the president’s order.

It’s not rumor that Chuckles gave donors positions in the state department.

It’s not rumor that Chuckles conducted all state business on her private, unauthorized server (thus avoiding FOIA)—a server that also housed the Clinton Foundation emails as well, which it should be noted that ANY state information on that server automatically makes it the property of the government. The moment that happened, it stopped being “her” server. So when she had her underlings wipe info from that server, they were destroying government property.

There you go. No direct links to Wikileaks, either, although if you were to check them out, they’d show you where Chuckles really stands on policy– because she can’t be genuine. She’s got her public position to garner votes and her private position she’ll carry out for monetary gain.

FBI Director James Comey was in (and still is) a hard place; a catch 22 whether or not he revealed that there was new information regarding the case– something he promised to do in his congressional testimony. How pissed would people be if they found out after the election that Chuckles was up to secret squirrel super shady shit? How dare he hide that from the American people! How dare he not say something about the fitness of said candidate when he had a chance! Or say it now, before election, giving the population information to make an informed decision regarding the candidate. I think he did the ethical thing by revealing it before election. If the rumors swirling around are true, then by Odin’s beard, absolutely we should know the kind of people we’re wanting to vote into office. 

Vote for who you will, but do so knowing just who it is you’re voting for.



Ballad of Sad America

Sometimes those who cheat
knock us off our feet
Stand back up and be proud
then burn the motherfucker down
Just burn it down
What’s the point of being in a country,
when they see you as the enemy?

Ready to gun you down?
We gotta stand up and fight, gotta do what’s right
when they push us down.
We can use our words, against their hate
But nothing will happen so we gotta escalate
And use our actions against their hate,
But we’ll be branded evil and things will escalate
To prove our right, we gotta fight
And if we must, we’ll let it burn
Down to the ground
We’ll keep up the fight to do what’s right
And let it burn to the down to the ground, we’ll let it burn.
We can start anew, and make it right
That we can to make up for having to fight
And like a phoenix we’ll rise
Brand new from the flame
A freedom uncontained

Sometimes the world just ain’t right
Sometimes it sucks the will to fight
Right out of you, right out of you
Sometimes it sucks the will to fight right out of you

Sometimes the world likes to, piss on our heads
Make us wish we were dead
No more indignity, no more shame
Sometimes the world just ain’t right
sometimes you just gotta fight
When something is so tainted,
that it affects those around it,
sometimes the best option,
is to purge it from the earth and build something new
So go grab your gas can
let’s go for a walk
And I’ll grab the zippo
and we’ll have a little talk
And then we’ll burn that shit down
Just burn it down, Just burn it down
to the ground
Just burn it down, down to the ground
start anew,
me and you
And make our future bright
Make that wrong into right
And if we must, put up a fight.

Disclaimer: this does not advocate literally burning buildings and people down to the ground. Just ideas, so let’s light a fire under our ass to fix things. Time to make that shit happen, people.

Ever play the video game, Civilization? We are in the simulation, and the fucker with the hand on the mouse is the kinda choad that wants to build the military and go for utter world domination.

Time to glitch.

Fucked Up Future Bingo: Check off all the shit that’s happened, as it’s happening!


This is from an Ask Me Anything, with an Anon FBI agent providing insight. Some wacky stuff in there too, but according to him, it’s for protection via plausible deniability.



Lessons we can learn from blowing smoke up places.

The idiom “blowing smoke up your arse/skirt” is based in reality. There was a time, long ago, that people did indeed blow tobacco smoke up people’s asses as a medical remedy. This phrase has deviated to something less literal, thankfully. In my local vernacular, the phrase means “you’re being bullshitted.”

We are being bullshitted this election. You are free and entitled to have a differing opinion– I want to make that clear. I may not agree with you, but I respect that everyone has their own point of view of the matter at hand.

Wikileaks has a history of journalism accolades. They don’t actually hack; they receive the information, have it vetted by their team of lawyers, and then it’s released. Those who give Wikileaks this sensitive information often do so knowing that their lives could be at stake. I think that’s important to note.

Media outlets are spinning the Wikileaks, pivoting from important into to “Russians!”


Expecting us to enjoy their political use of Jazz Hands and be swayed by the motion, to forget  what the content of those emails contains. And while they yell “Privacy! We NEED IT!” they forget that they passed legislature that makes the NSA spying on people possible.



I’ve been vocal about what I’ve discovered. Yeah, there’s a tin-foil hat quality to it, but still, stranger things have happened. We cannot ignore the truth if we find it uncomfortable.


Speaking of which, want to know what makes me uncomfortable? Knowing that yesterday, after posting a tin-foil hat kind of video on youtube, I got several hits from people in the DC area. All regarding my abortion blog post (which I’ve made private because tin foil hat, duh) … If they want to research me, they can contact me privately via email. Just sayin’.eastcoastabortion

This country has bigger problems than this mere shit-show election. And you can ignore it if it makes you uncomfortable. But please don’t act surprised if shit hits the fan in a much bigger way than you ever anticipated. Especially when Wikileaks has shown us that things in this video exist and are relevant.